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GETTING BETTER

God's first thought upon waking up from native state was "This is
too good to be true."

He's been worried about it ever since.

The real hidden standard is can you face your future with
assuredness, aplomb, equanimity, poise, eternal good humor, honor,
dignity, self possession, and peace?

Can you face your eternal future without fear or worry, or hatred
or anger, and without whistling past the graveyard?

Can you even conceive of 'my future is endlessly beautiful'?

With everyone else hanging on their crosses begging to die?

The guy who has a problem with getting better probably has a
problem with BEING better.

You see?

He is worried about not being worried any more.

That scares the hell out of him.

How human is that?

He worries that perhaps you can have too much peace.

He considers that he lost his sovereignty, but he can't recompose a
sovereign intent to do so if only for a while.

He is not sure he WANTS to.

WANT SOVEREIGNTY AND DON'T WANT SOVEREIGNTY.

Thus he considers something or someone CAUSED him to lose his
sovereignty, which puts him at effect.

This creates an ARC break with being an effect, rather than a
love affair, and thus also an ARC break with cause, namely the cause
that put him at detested effect. He considers that he didn't choose,
that he didn't consider, that his consderations are not cause.

That IS non sovereignty.

He gets stuck at fear of worsening and being an effect because of
his intent to return in like kind to the one who put him there.

He is trying to make what caused him to be an effect into an effect
itself, to punish, teach a lesson, to just get rid of FOREVER AND EVER
AMEN, and that dramatization to make another cause into an effect, is
enough to cement into place his postulate that he is in fact an effect
of a cause greater than he is.

The more forever he wants to make this other cause into an effect,
the more forever he remains an effect due to his own postulate that he
is an effect of another cause, hates it, and must DO something about it.
Thus hells last exactly as long as people dramatize forevers and nevers.

Then he figures that should he regain his sovereignty back again,
by hook or by crook, and considering the auditor in front of him,
probably by accident, there will still be his original opponent, his
Nemesis One, ready to kick him back into the abyss again.

He has mustered up a lot of power, energy and force over the
matter, preparing and trying to fight that which 'put him at effect'.

Thus his concept of regaining his sovereinty is a little like
busting out of jail, better to be armed to the teeth and firing away, in
case the jail is surrounded by guards ready to throw you back in.

Sovereignty is the ability to create power or not at will, that IS
power and ability.

So he has all this power and fight mocked up about having lost his
sovereignty and now he is armed to the teeth with more power and fight
to shoot his opponent should he break free, lest his opponent have a
moment's free thought to jail him again.

He thinks he doesn't know WHAT jailed him the first time, so he
figures he will need time to figure it out, take it all in, once he is
out of jail.

He's gotta look around him, see if he even recognizes the land
scape, what jail he is in etc, just a microsecond or two, but that's too
much time if the opponent is watching and well armed you see? I mean he
lost the last time around, he's in jail now right? Just so, he figures
this opponent is bigger and faster than him and WAITING for him to break
out, with an eye on him 24x7.

This is of course entirely insane as insanity is the effort to stop
what you consider you didn't start.

How can sovereignty lose sovereignty through anything except
sovereignty?

No one caused him to lose his sovereignty, he CHOSE, and not under
duress, nor a power fight nor anything at all, it was in fact a quiet
choice made in the middle of the void, no fan fare, no fireworks, no
nothing actually, he just kind of slid into it on purpose, like a drag
racer puts his car into first and lazy's out onto the circuit.

And this is the way he will regain his sovereignty believe it or
not, no WOW, no marvel, no surprise, no delight, no gratefullness, no
thankyous, no kudos, just a quiet choice to undo a quiet choice.

Take the car out of first and put it into neutral and let it coast
to an eternal standstill.

"Sovereignty is perfectly happy, alone, forever and beyond
thankyou.

The law of Saviors is,

If you are grateful for having been saved, you aren't."

Now that is poise, self possession, and self esteem at the top.

If he messes up clutching the transition back to sovereignty he
may laugh his head off for a month, but that's a red tag.

Back to Qual, learn how to operate the clutch smoothly, in and out
of sovereignty.

Homer

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Homer Wilson Smith The Paths of Lovers Art Matrix - Lightlink
(607) 277-0959 KC2ITF Cross Internet Access, Ithaca NY
homer@lightlink.com In the Line of Duty http://www.lightlink.com

Mon Feb 5 01:57:01 EST 2007

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Homer Wilson Smith Clean Air, Clear Water, Art Matrix - Lightlink
(607) 277-0959 A Green Earth, and Peace, Internet, Ithaca NY
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