Session Report 1/24/99
I have spent the last 3 or 4 days sick as a dog from the flu or
whatever the latest plague is that Cornell leaks from its under ground
bio warfare facilities periodically, fighting for my life not only
against the somatics of the virus but also the somatics of my case.
I wrote last night asking what it meant when the TA was rising
and nothing would read, and the answer is utterly wrong ball park.
TA = Tone Arm on the e-meter, centers the needle and measures total
resistence between the hand held cans.
I asked what it meant when an item would finally make the needle
fall but then it started to rise faster until the TA packed up against
all efforts to make the item come down. The answer is missing or
bypassing the exact correct item.
Missing means to get it close which restimulates the correct item
causing the momentary falls and then fast rising.
When an item is missed, the rising it causes can be so fast that it
becomes an anathema to the auditor, so one has to adjust the sensitivity
down in order to make the rising seem normal again. That's in general a
good way to set the sensitivity, rising and falling in balance and not
out of control.
Bypassing means getting the item right on the head, not seeing a
read because its a dead center stop, and going right on by it with a
"Nope, that's not it." A little playing around with dead center stops
usually results in producing the falls and TA blow downs if its really a
right item, but it takes some doing and a critical eye of the meter.
You sit there rapping your fingers on the table thinking "Yeah
right, tell me this isn't going to read!" Then it makes this sneaky
little smile at you and you get this long *SLOW* beautiful blowdown read
and you can feel the weight of eons lifting ever so slightly.
The correct ball park item which stopped the "dead high in the sky
TA with no reads" was Christ Consciousness. The myriad items which
caused the TA to start coming down or at least get very active while
continuously climbing soon after, are contained in the following posting
which I have written over the past few days.
Just now I have come out of session with my first F/N in 21 years.
F/N = Floating Needle on the e-meter.
F/N's are the most amazing thing to behold, they are essentially
the TA rising smoothly and blowing down *ON ITS OWN* randomly and as
often as it is rising, each blow down leaving the TA natually lower at
the end of each cycle. You can sit back and watch them, you can adjust
the sensitivity up and down, they are just about unkillable. If you
kill them, but you settle back down, they come right back as the charge
continues to come off.
At first I didn't believe this F/N even though I was already wide
eyed at the results of the process up to that point, so I tried to kill
it and terrorize it out of existence a few times.
But it kept coming back, nothing like an unkillable F/N to make you
wrong.
Although the F/N occured at TA 4.2 I let the process go at that
point just marveling at the possibility that I actually may have made
some case gain in 21 years of near death experiences called my life.
The F/N lasted for about 15 minutes, and I ended off at TA 3.5 to
come write this session report.
The TA fell on its own from TA 4.2 to 3.5 just watching the F/N, I
mean that's just unbelievable for me.
Normally I watch the needle and it goes to 7.0 and stays there.
This process cut directly to the center of the somatic force fields
in my body, through the eyes, the sinuses, the nape of my neck, my
throat, the back of my heart and spine and my rump. The process I was
running was an effort level process, meaning it was two alternating
questions with no intent of getting to actual answers.
It's an important ability to be able to ask a question without
trying to get the answer as they are really two different actions, and
separating the two is necessary to go OT.
The main intent was to spot, redramatize and release the efforts
involved in dramatizing the two questions, and suppresing the answers.
The dramatization is in the asking of the question, not in the
specific answers that might apply to the questions as there are many of
them and will be many more.
THE DRAMATIZATION IS IN ASKING THE QUESTION NOT IN FINDING THE
ANSWER.
In this sense the question is its own answer, the answer to the
pc's case is the question he is dramatizing, what ever answers there
might be to those questions are strictly secondary. From experience
with this pair, your pc may very well get free of much of the garbage he
collected around his dramatizations before he actually gets to a point
where he starts coming up with answers.
And in any case he will be able to see when and how he is
dramatizing in present time and in the future and won't accumulate more.
You will understand the process and the questions better after
you read the following post, so please do.
The process that produced my first true F/N in forever was,
"What do you respect?"
"What do you not respect?"
So with the caveat that we ARE God incarnation, here it is.
Homer
((Editors Comments in double parentheses - Homer))
CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS
ADO - 13
24 January 1999
Copyright (C) 1999 Homer Wilson Smith
Redistribution rights granted for non commercial purposes.
They say that God is Love, they don't say that God is respect.
They tell you that God loves you although you are a sinner, but
he does not respect your sin, and that is why you can not get to
heaven, and why you must suffer as you do.
Truth is God in heaven can't see sin, he is blind as a bat to all
the bad things you have done. When God looks at you from heaven all
he sees is the light of Christ Consciousness shining through your
soul, you are as worthy and as beautiful as everyone else, including
Himself.
"You are to love one another as I have loved you, and I have
loved you as the Father has loved me." - Jesus
That is how Christ Consciousness works, its flows from Source
through souls to each other until it meets a block.
If you can open your mind, infinite Cosmic Love just flows
through you all on its own.
The soul is like a portal to Heaven, if he opens his window the
light just shines through.
Sin is the closed window.
Actually God can see the sin, but its an adornment to your soul
that adds to your beauty in His eyes.
He understands and appreciates that the show you are putting on
is for Him.
The reason people have to clean up their act in order to get back
to heaven is not because God can't accept them as they are but because
in their fallen state they can't accept themselves as they are.
Christ Consciousness is the Magnificent Respect of Adore. Love
without respect is a weird kind of love, that's not really love at
all. Respect means to re-spect, to see again, specifically to be
willing to see again.
Respect is not some dry academic attitude that one offers to
those lower than one out of condescension or fatherly duty.
Respect is admiration, delight, approval, appreciation and
willingness to view more.
Respect is an unstoppable smile.
No small matter then being a Master of Respect.
That is Christ Consciousness.
Love and respect produce emotion that makes the heart sing, for
there is nothing left to hate or to hide.
Love, sorrow and laughter form an Eternal Triangle that power the
forward motion of the universe.
They are the reason to be.
When a soul falls from Christ Consciousness he will enter a track
of doing everything that 'can not be respected'.
This is not a flaw, it is the stream of the soul, it is
perfection in operation. The course the soul takes is the course the
soul takes, it can not be any other way.
All are perfect.
At the bottom of this fall you will find people dramatizing "I am
better than you are because I didn't do such and such a thing and you
did!"
Thus when a pc has an auditor that has not attained Christ
Consciousness himself, the pc is always able to divulge a withhold
that will exceed the auditor's ability to respect it, and then rather
than acknowledging the withhold and giving the next auditing command
the auditor will go "That's disgusting!" and end session.
This pushes the pc further out of session and the auditor further
away from Christ Consciousness.
For the pc however all it takes is a simple indication of these
facts to get him aligned again, because he will see the truth of it,
and he will understand the inevitable nature of what happened.
And his love for his auditor will increase 10 fold, although he
may crank up the imp smile a bit while considering dilvulging his next
withhold. It's for his auditor's own good after all.
During the fall, pc's withhold in order to regain the apparancy
of 'respectability' after having committed a non respectable act in
their own eyes.
They are already lost in a sea of conditional respect, and
everytime they violate that conditionality, they have to pretend it
didn't happen in order to regain their position. It's an effort to
get back to Christ Consciousness, "You see I am still respectable!",
but it actually drives the person further and further from Christ
Consciousness as true unconditional respect brooks no exceptions or
deceptions.
Thus the pc with withholds from himself, will not clear, because
all there is to clear are the moments the pc didn't respect himself.
The auditing of the fall from Christ Consciousness then is the
auditing of the flip from unconditional respect to conditional
respect, and then of the many myriad times one saw the light and
comprehended it not.
The flip from Christ Consciousness into the fall is the run in
with the Anti Christ Consciousness, it becomes his Nemesis One, what
he hates and wants to destroy the most, what he has NO RESPECT FOR.
It must not be.
It must never have been, he's already lost that war.
So from the start he is on a substitute goal.
The best he can do is be sure it must not be again.
He doesn't want to see it again, and he wishes he had never seen
it in the first place.
It left a burning scar on his soul and he is just sure that if he
does see it again he will die for good this time.
It's the Ultimate Monster that guards the gates of Eternal
Freedom.
Freedom to what? Freedom to be a source of Eternal Beneficence
to one and all of course.
He doesn't respect the monster, he forgets his state just prior
to the fall, so now he has a basic on the chain of everything else
that follows.
Living in the fall of conditional respect, he separates himself
off from everything that is 'bad', and aligns himself with everything
that is 'good', and sets out to destroy forever the bad at whatever
cost. However he begins to use the bad to fight the bad, and soon he
is no better than the bad he fights, and he knows it, and he regrets
it, and thus are born the withholds.
But each regret is a moment of re-ascension to the Christ
Consciousness state, he regrets hurting the bad guy because he knows
down deep in his primary soul that the bad guy is not a bad guy at
all, but a brother of the light like himself. He flashes on the bond
of Love, Sorrow and Laughter at the moment he strikes, and he knows he
has done wrong yet again.
But its too late, the Chalice is broken.
He was dramatizing To Harm and Destroy, when he should have been
operating to Help and Create.
He just can't figure it out.
The bastard from hell deserved what he got, but the moment the pc
delivered the strike he was struck in return with God's love in his
face.
He never resolves this, he just covers it all up, hopes no one
notices, and hopes to hell it never has to happen again.
But it always does.
Thus these are all the times one saw the love of God for a
moment, but it didn't make any sense, because he was trying so hard
"to be good", but when the truth was told 'being good' didn't matter
to God at all.
The person's time track is filled with endless numbers of these
major and micro ascension experiences, he will have gotten them from
his own overt acts, but also from movies, from music, from pretty
girls, from great accomplishments, from poetry, acts of selfless
bravery, heroism against overwhelming odds, etc.
Adore itself was born from a run in with a single pretty Jewish
girl who wouldn't give me the time of day. Of course I was a boogie
dripping drool at the time, so I can see her point, however I was
drooling over her if it makes any difference.
Anyhow she was an ascension experience a minute for me, and it
was out of my attempt to deal with the cataclismic clash of emotions
for her and everyone like her before her, that Adore was born.
Ah well, they say behind every great work of art was a woman who
didn't love you. :) Consider Chopin's first piano concerto.
The lesson learned was that unconditional respect comes from
adoration forever for *FREE*.
You don't do it because you are going to get something back, you
do it because its true.
It was the only way I could maintain my sanity.
The love was there, I had to give it even though it would never
be returned.
God's love is the same way, it flows from Source, through you, to
*ALL THINGS*, absolutely and unconditionally, forever for free.
But it takes a shift in understanding.
There is a reason why you are beautiful even though adorned in
sin.
It's that shift in understanding that causes the transit from
Christ Consciousness to Anti Christ Consciousness and Nemesis One.
And its that same shift in understanding that will help you back
to where you came from.
You know Richard Burton once said that the first time he laid
eyes on Eliabeth Taylor he found her so beautiful he laughed out loud.
Spot the moments your pc perceived a beauty so great it made him
laugh out loud.
That's looking upon the face of God.
Each moment produces a release, a great and abiding peace, an all
encompassing friendliness, bonded to an Eternal Good Humor, followed
by confusion, shock, problem, withhold, ARC break, and KRC break.
ARC means Affinity, Reality, Communication = Understanding.
KRC means Knowledge, Responsibility and Control.
He feels at home with the experience, but he "comprehended it not."
That's a break in understanding, and leads to a break in control,
he can no longer make it come and go at will because he doesn't know
what it is saying to him any more.
He can't get the message that the beauty is telling him, that God
is FRIENDSHIP, that God loves him dearly, really and truely adores him,
but he doesn't love himself and he is no longer friends to himself.
That's because he is lost in conditional respect.
The God state isn't.
Remember true unconditional respect is not condescension to the
unfortunate who can not be any better than they are.
It's not something you put on for public show to smooth the
boundaries of social concourse.
Unconditional respect is *GENUINE* respect.
It's YOU WANT TO SEE IT AGAIN.
Unconditional respect is true admiration and adoration of things as
they are because one sees the beauty in the loss and one appreciates the
gift one is being given, by the play or drama and sin being acted out.
This is a shift in understanding from the Human to the Divine.
"Oh Gorgeous and Most ExCaliper Lord,
Master of Magnificence and Respect..." - Adore
(ExCaliper means without measure)
An Ascended Master is a Master of Respect.
"Spot a moment of beauty."
"Spot an ascension experience."
"Was it in the middle of an engram, secondary or loss?"
You can actually spot this stuff without getting an actual time
place form and event, just the efforts to suppress the event will do, as
they are right in front of the pc's face, in fact the pc usually
considers the pressure ridges from this stuff to BE his face.
"Spot a moment of non comprehension."
"Spot a moment of non understanding."
"Something wanted about it?"
"Something not wanted about it?"
You know no one is asking you to attain this state 24 hours a day,
you would probably change the structure of the universe if you did.
But you should be able to go up there and touch Christ
Consciousness whenever you need to. Just like you have orange juice in
the morning, you go up there, touch upon the radiance of magnificent
respect for a moment, laugh til you cry, come back down, go to work 9 to
5, come home and treat your kids good and have happy dreams at night.
You can do that.
Spot and run the Anti Christ Consciousness of conditional respect
and resulting crucifixion on the cross of pride and shame.
End Phenomenon is
1.) Able and willing to be here,
2.) Able to Love, Laugh and Cry at will,
3.) Able to burp at will. :)
State attained is
Master of Respect.
Homer
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