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AGENCY
ADO - 15
20 June 2004
Copyright (C) 2004 Homer Wilson Smith
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The purpose of auditing is to increase AGENCY.
Agency is outward flowing causation.
Self is the 'Agent One'.
Self awareness is awareness of the Agent One.
There are truths which are fundamental, they can not be changed,
negated or be any other way, they can only be postulated as an
agreement, or counter postulated as a disagreement if the being wants
to create a lie in order to cause persistence in time.
Self awakes from native state postulating in full accord with
these fundamental truths.
Self however can then postulate (manifest) into the void other
truths that then become true only because the self has postulated
them.
We call these CREATED TRUTHS.
After the self has created a truth, it can then counter postulate
against that same truth thus creating a lie, and thus creating
persistence into time of the truth/lie pair. The apparency is that
the lie is true, but underlying the lie, the power comes from the
original created truth.
Thus those that hate each other forever more, HAD to love one
another at some earlier time.
And those that love one another forver more, HAD to hate each
other at some earlier time.
Both love and hate can be freely chosen but have little to no
persistence in themselves. Once you have something forever more, in
time, a temporal foreverness, you know the lie is persisting on the
power of the prior truth.
They hate each other BECAUSE they don't love each other any more,
you see the difference? The guy who simply hates out of the blue is
just as likely to go off and eat a hamburger than keep up the hate.
LOOKING BY KNOWING
Created truths are created via looking by knowing.
The being knows something, and in the knowing of it, it gets
created and thus he can see it. This is the outward flowing agency of
the KNOWER creating a LOOKED AT.
In return the knower can now see the looked at and thus verify
that what was created matches what he knew into creation in the first
place. This is the backward flowing agency of the looked at giving
the knower the certainty that what was created is what was intended.
This backward flowing agency from looked at to knower is what allows
the knower to CHECK OUT and verify his creation.
So you have:
Knower creates created truth. LOOKING BY KNOWING
Knower sees created truth. KNOWING BY LOOKING.
The process of CHECKING OUT is the process of knowing by looking.
KNOWING BY LOOKING
Now a being can run into something created by another knower.
In this case the being does not know up front what it is he is
about to look at. By looking at the the thing created by the other
knower, the first being can LEARN what the other being created. This
process of learning is also KNOWING BY LOOKING.
It is pretty clear that for most human beings, they spend much of
their time knowing by looking, learning about what already exists,
rather than creating something new to be true in the already existing
matrix of projected creations.
When a being has a dream, a vision of what he would like to have
exist, he is looking by knowing. He knows what he wants, and he can
then see it clearly in his "mind's eye". (You can make mockups
right?)
But then his dream runs into existing creations by others and
forms a ridge. In this universe that we all share, things no longer
become 'true' just and only because we conceived it. That's the way
we conceived this place!
So the being now needs to take steps to realize his dream, to
make his dream true, to fit into the existing matrix of other existing
creations.
We call this work. Or play, depending on your tone.
To the degree that the being realizes his dream, his outward
flowing agency that created his vision from his knowing gets
manifested in the shared universe for all to look at and learn about.
To the degree that he fails to realize his dream, his agency has
been overwhelemd by the existing agencies of other's already creating
into the matrix he is sharing.
Beings can create a matrix, an arena of creations, that is so
large and overwhelming that the implied agency IN THE MATRIX ALONE
will overwhelm anyone trying to create something new in it, and at
that point the matrix becomes a tomb for failed agency.
Thus all auditing is directed at increasing agency of the being
so he can create within the matrix again, or create a whole new matrix
altogether if this one has become too cluttered.
Specifically we want to optimize the operating balance between
Looking by Knowing and Knowing by Looking.
Dig it and don't leave it.
*AN OPERATING BALANCE OF LOOKING BY KNOWING AND KNOWING BY
LOOKING.*
The more the being can engage in looking by knowing, the more
effective his agency is and the less overwhelmed he is. The more the
being must know by looking, the less effective his agency is and the
more overwhelmed a being is by other people's or thing's agency.
A totally 100 percent overwhelmed being is simply a being who can
ONLY know by looking.
He can't even NOT know by NOT looking any more!
Everywhere he looks he see his tomb, and that's ALL he is doing
all day long.
SOLO AUDITING
Many preclears want to solo audit, they don't want to work with
another as an auditor.
Problems of money, space/time, availablility, maybe even pride
come into the equation.
Help can be expensive, embarassing, impossible etc, so some opt
for self help in order to avoid the problems of being helped by
another.
Solo auditing is a top down proposition.
It's silly to put up an engram in front of your face and then run
it out. You are putting it up, why not just ceasing doing that!
Well it's not that easy you say. True, but the answer is still
not to try to run yourself on Dianetics or CCH's.
Dual auditing runs from the bottom up, you start with group
processing, life repair prepchecks, ARC straightwire, CCH's, Grades
etc.
Dual auditing depends mostly on the two way comm between the
preclear and the auditor to work. Its not the magic of the exact
process being run, that helps, but its the two way comm that really
produces the as-isness. The process is merely a crutch.
That's why running grades or cch's on yourself really isn't very
useful, there is no two way comm going on.
Does that mean you can't help yourself?
No, it means you can't help yourself by assuming you are at the
bottom of the bridge and auditing from the bottom up.
You CAN help yourself by auditing from the top down though.
You assume you are sovereign, and start to remock up being not
sovereign again. Since the way in is the way out, once you weasel
your way in again, wham you are out.
You have to BE out to come in, so practicing coming in, puts you
out.
Dig it and don't leave that one either.
By WAY IN, we mean the way down the bridge from sovereign being
to worm on a stump about to be eaten by a crow.
When auditing others from the bottom up, the way out is the way
through of course, they have to go THROUGH all that stuff they created
on the way down.
But when auditing solo from the top down, the way out is the way
in. Once you get the way in, you ARE out.
PARTY LINES
"A party line is a fixed idea, pet theory, or other philosophical
vanity that when confronted by evidence or reason that it is wrong,
over rules that evidence or reason.
People may be stuck in one or more party lines.
The core party line is the perfect certainty that perfect
certainty is impossible or unimportant.
We call this 'mind broke'." - The Proof, Plate 1.
There is a very important rule operating here.
If a person is absolutely 'certain' of A, but A is wrong, and you
show him with absolute certainty that B is true instead, he won't get
it. That's because you haven't gotten him to see where A was wrong.
So even though B is looming, he can't wrap his wits around B because
he 'knows' that A is true.
For example a person believes the moon is made of green cheese.
You go to the moon and you bring back rocks.
He can't wrap his wits around the rocks because of the prior
certainty that the moon is made of green cheese. By showing him the
rocks you have not make him wrong, you have not made him give up his
certainty it is made of green cheese, you have put him into an
incredibility. The incredibility is that you brought home rocks!
The definition of an incredibility is two opposing certainties:
CERTAINTY THAT SOMETHING IS TRUE
CERTAINTY THAT SOMETHING IS IMPOSSIBLE
By showing this guy the rocks, he is now certain the moon is made
of green cheese, but that its also made of rocks!
That doesn't compute, you see?
When a mind is confronted with an incredibility it freezes, it
can't move from that point forward. It stops thinking altogether on
the subject or solves the incredibility by discounting the second
certainty in order to return to the first certainty.
Remember the power is always in the first postulate!
Or he gives up utterly and says perfect certainty of anything is
impossible! Of that he is now perfectly certain you see.
So if you are really going to get this guy to be able to deal
with rocks, you HAVE to get him to confront where he got his idea it
was made of green cheese in the first place.
He will find, that since his certainty about green cheese was
wrong, it could never have been a real certainty in the first place,
and once he spots his original out integrity of considering a non
certainty to be a certainty, he will say "Oh what a fool I was to be
so sure, ok I admit I never really knew that in the first place, and
yes its quite ok by me that the moon is made of rocks and not green
cheese!"
Party lines are like this.
They are a false 'certainty' that lies in the way of any other
true certainty that might contradict them.
As long as the false certainty is in place, there is no making
progress with true certainties that contradict it.
One party line is a being's absolute conviction that he is RIGHT
about being a limited being.
"Oh no I could never be a god, I could never be in control, I
could NEVER have had any responsibility for this place, I could never
be certain I exist, I could never be certain of ANYTHING, how dare you
think such thoughts!"
He will get the qualms just considering the possibility of having
self respect in some area.
Mockup up having a perfect mate. Where the hell is she you ask?
How would you feel if you knew?
You see he is hiding behind the question from the answer!
Its easy to confront having the question and being the lonely
victim forever more, its hard to confront having the answer and being
sovereign again.
You can not argue with a being's party lines, he will argue for
them like a pit bull until YOU give up in exhaustion.
PARTY LINES ARE CREATED IN ORDER TO CONTINUE THE GAME.
Party lines were made long ago with GREAT POWER, much more power
than you have today to bring to bear against them.
Their intent and purpose is to create persistence FOREVER of the
present game, so you are going up against a being's desire to be here
when you try to undermine them.
Remember the second postulate persists but gets its power from
the first postulate.
The first postulate is "I am Sovereign, what I conceive comes true
in the conception of it."
The second postualte is "Whoops, shouldn't have conceived of
a worm on a stump."
The first postulate is to be here in the game, "I want in."
The second postulate is "I want out."
So the guy may on the surface look like he wants to get out,
can't stand life, hates getting up in the morning etc., THATS HOW HE
KEEPS HIMSELF IN, but if you really and truely try to get him out, he
will balk and turn on you, as he really wants to be in.
"No, no, you mustn't play with THAT!"
He just wants in to be a bit friendlier, lose some games, win
more games, get laid once a life time etc.
So you can audit him to better be able to be in.
But you can't audit him to better be able to be out, he won't
let you.
He wants to know how much further IN he can go and still move.
He doesn't want to leave his friends behind, he wants to
better beable to play WITH THEM while in!
He doesn't want to be an OT, he wants to be a well and happy
human being. Last time he was OT, look what he mocked himself up as!
Well and happy human beings can't cause any trouble.
Well and happy human being is kind of a half way house out of
this universe. It's on the way out for sure, but the guy is going to
stay there for a LONG time and enjoy being in for a while.
Joke is he never really enjoyed his long slow descent coming in,
so he is sure as hell going to enjoy being in on his long slow ascent
getting out.
Odd isn't it, prison is no fun coming into it, but great fun
being in it while you are getting out!
Since soloing is the way out, and party lines are the way in,
they are diametrically opposed to each other, and so anyone who is
still holding onto their party lines can't solo.
Thus a being with a party line can not solo because soloing is
the action of getting out. The joke is that one gets out by
practicing coming IN, but the party liner won't get that. He's just
*TERRIFIED* of being out. He's just sure it is *FOREVER*. He is so
terrified of being stuck out, that he has put his ALL into getting
stuck in.
He has Eternal Forevers (out of time) confused with Temporal
Forevers (in time) and he knows temporal forevers are hell. Thus he
tries to create a game that will never end because a temporal forever
of games is a better hell than a temporal forever of no games ever
again.
HIS PRESENT EXISTENCE IS A SOLUTION TO A PRIOR TIME HE REALLY
THOUGHT THERE WOULD BE NO GAMES EVER AGAIN.
The last goodbye.
Before that he designed the whole confusion with grand and
ExCaliper design. (Ex Caliper = without measure, worth beyond
measure.)
But in the meantime, that choice to create a game that will never
end, is not real to him, but the prior vision of no games forever more
is very real to him, and so by auditing him you are digging him out of
a hell he can stand (temporal games forever) and throwing him into the
prior apparent hell no one could stand (temporal no games forever).
A being has to undergo a major epiphany for their party lines to
break. They recognize that the party line no longer serves them, they
become willing to experience and BE *ANYTHING* that can be, including
a God who is wrong about everything, and at that point they can solo
from the top down. They are willing to get out, because they know
they can come in again, AT WILL AND WITH EASE.
FOREVERS
Forevers are an important part of aberration, one could say the
ONLY part.
There are two kinds of forevers, Eternal Forevers which can and
do exist between whiles, and Temporal Forevers which can not exist,
because all things created in space/time are created in a whole called
a 'while'.
Whiles are finite lengths of time no matter how long, but always
finite in length, in which games are created.
This is very important, because it means that a being CAN NOT GET
STUCK IN TIME FOREVER AS ALL WHILES MUST END ONE DAY.
The being can however try to make those whiles as long as
possible, certainly longer than the last one which always ended too
early.
All whiles end too early no matter how long they are, which then
gives impetus for the next creation.
Thus one can expect much of the aberration on a being to consist
entirely and totally of mechanisms to extend the present while as long
as possible.
Certain things can be concluded from the above.
All games must end one day.
Nothing last's forever in time.
Thus there are no Hell's forever nor Heaven's forever in time.
There have been an infinite number of past whiles created in the
Eternal Void, and there will be an infinite number of future whiles
created in that same void.
Once a while ends, its gone, like it never happened.
When a while ends, the beings involved go back to the Big Snooze,
where they sleep in a timeless 'eternal foreverness'.
When they wake up into dreamtime again, they wake up as for the
first time, although they are aware it is not the first time but the
infinityth time.
If you doubt that all creation takes place in whiles, or that
this is even desirable, try running the following process for a while.
"Consider infinite time into the future."
You will notice how it drives you down tone because you don't
WANT infinite time into the future. That's hell forever. Even if it
were pleasure forever for free into the future, its still hell
forever. You would merely be crucified on a cross of gorgeous
deliciousness, begging to die after a while.
Why? Because it violates your sovereign desire. Remember those
fundamental truths we talked about at the beginning? Well this is one
of them.
You don't want to live forever in time.
YOU DO NOT WANT TO LIVE IN ONE INFINITELY LONG WHILE.
YOU WANT TO LIVE IN AN INFINITE NUMBER OF DIFFERENT FINITELY LONG
WHILES SEPARATED BY ETERNAL SLEEP WITH SOVEREIGN CHOICE DETERMINING
WHEN AND IF YOU LEAVE ETERNAL SLEEP TO JOIN DREAMTIME AGAIN IN A NEW
WHILE.
Since it is absolutely impossible for desire and the AllThatIs to
be out of accord at a fundamental level, what you want is what you
get, and you get it BECAUSE you want it.
There is no followingness. HAVE = WANT = HAVE = WANT.
THE MECHANISM
There is a mechanism by which a being gets a while to last as
long as possible.
He creates and comes into the while wanting to come in, but then
once in, he arranges to want to get out. His resistence to coming in
is an alter-is of his desire to come in, and thus creates a
persistence of him being in.
THE BEING STICKS HIMSELF IN BY WANTING TO GET OUT.
He doesn't just want to get out in order to sleep and perhaps
come in again you see, that would be very workable, too workable,
dream times wouldn't last very long if he had that view.
No, he wants to get out FOREVER.
Down deep he CAN'T STAND THIS PLACE.
He creates persistence of the while by creating resistence to
being in the while by considering that the while is FOREVER.
You see if its only for a while, well he can wait it out,
a being can wait anything out as long as its only for a while!
But if its forever, then there is nothing he can do. That turns
on panic and descent at a fast rate.
Being in a time stream forever is a violation of Sovereign
desire, it is THE ONLY break in Sovereign Desire, and this drives him
into such an INFINITE frenzy of resistence he can then be sure he will
continue in the while forever and ever amen.
Well until he changes his mind about the forever part.
You see at first he is in Native State, no whiles, no
persistence, at least nothing hangs out long enough to be a problem.
Lots of things go by that entice him, but he just watches them pass
like the clouds on a summer eve's sky.
He's HAPPY TO BE HAPPY.
Then he gets the idea it might be fun to enter a while and get
lost in it. He's not totally satisfied with being happy to be happy
all the time.
Now he is UNHAPPY TO BE HAPPY.
It's just a change of consideration, believe me a being can sit
in bemused relief on the verge of time forever and not have a problem
with being happy he is happy.
Remember out of time forever is OK, in time forever ain't.
So at some point he engages in majesty, the impulse towards
classy jokes of self treason, and he wants to join the fray of fools.
Majestic practical jokes of self treason are what time is all
about.
Every persistence is a humor encased in persisting sorrow.
He knows this when he jumps in, so everything is cool.
So he creates a while or joins a while already created.
But to stay there, to make both he and the while persist, he has
to be very unhappy he is in the while in order to create enough
resistence to cause a persistence.
The only resistence strong enough to cause a while to persist
beyond the first sneeze is a FOREVER.
So he creates the idea that he is going to be in this while
FOREVER, and that makes him very unhappy indeed and makes the while
persist like a rock. Forever actually, until he gives up the idea!
Which makes him really happy because he got what he wanted, to
join and stay in a while for a while, by pretending it is forever.
So now he is HAPPY TO BE UNHAPPY.
He's got purpose, he's got get up and go, he's got friends to
make and enemies to fight, he loves to hate, and hates to love, he's
got importances, seriousness, permanance and pain up the wazoo, and an
infinite future of glorious dramatization ahead of him. What better
time could there be?
He is also totally unauditable and unable to solo because he put
too much effort putting his party lines in place to have some damn
fool auditor blowing them all to pieces again.
Being an auditor is the LAST beingness on the chain, not the
first. Not even an early one :)
Now here is where Leonard Cohen comes in.
Believing in temporal forevers creates infinite charge and sticks
the being more and more into the very forevers he believes in. In
particular, God save his soul, should he ever get mad at himself or
another and WISH A FOREVER OFF on that person, he himself will
immediately descend into the very forever he wished off on the other.
EVEN IF HE WISHES A POSITIVE PLEASUREABLE FOREVER OFF ON ANOTHER,
he has violated both his own and the other's sovereign desire to live
in a FINITE while and to engage in any game or beingness they might
wish to, including hanging on a cross and being crow food.
Now you can see that this being believes he is in the game
forever, and worse he's real FRAGILE, can be ruined etc., and things
are real serious, you can get killed forever, so maybe you won't be in
ANY GAME forever, or you can get crippled and just have to suffer
forever and people have to take care of you forever etc.
Forever, forever, forever, forever. You see?
Things become very PRECIOUS TO HIM, and he begins to bring DRAMA
to every aspect of his life.
Pride and Guilt, Glory and Shame, he's swinging the Sword of
Excalibur all around him. Woe to those who don't befriend him or who
get in his way.
DRAMA is PERMANENCE, IMPORTANCE, SERIOUSNESS AND PAIN.
Permanent loss, forever and ever, you see?
So when people do bad things to him, make his already existing
forevers worse, he does forever things back to them. They kill his
kid, he executes them. If he can't execute them, he WISHES THEM INTO
HELL FOREVER.
Forever, forever, forever, forever. You see?
So all these forevers that he is considering, "I am wounded
forever, my kid is wounded forever, I want you to be wounded forever"
sink him more and more into what?
PERSISTENCE FOREVER!
Persistence of what?
DRAMA. Permanence, importance, seriousness and pain.
And that's hell.
And it is a hell FOREVER for him just exactly as long as he
continues to dramatize FOREVERS in his dream time.
Once he says "Well, heh, its not forever, this dream ends when
the circle of friends are all holding hands again!" things start to
lift for him and he starts to get free.
But he would have to be willing to be friends again with everyone
in the WHILE. *EVERYONE*. It was all just role playing right?
Woah, that's a big one, right?
List now everyone in your life for whom it wasn't 'just role
playing'.
He would also have to be awfully willing to let others continue
to dramatize their righteous forevers to keep their games going, and
enjoy the spectacle no matter how much they hurt each other or
themselves. As a spectator of the drama he would 'get the joke' and
appreciate the humor to the carnage.
He would also have to be willing to say his last goodbyes to that
while and everyone in it, and go back to the eternal big snooze while
others were still playing the games of doom forever.
He could always come back in later, or join or create a new
while, depending on his sovereign desire at the time.
That's what you want, right?
To be able to create heaven's and hell's at will.
For a while.
Oh, there is someone you don't want to just get out scott free?
Well that holds you here, don't you see?
*YOU* can't confront what you are wishing off on him! Who now
do you think that sinks?
You think you can create an unconfrontable and hand it off
to someone else before it burns YOU to toast?
That's what happens to you when you die by the way, all these
hells you been mocking up for others are all just waiting there
for you.
You gotta be here, to keep him here.
Omni well done, and Omni Amen.
You can stop doing it, and run it out.
Then you won't have to go through the hells to get to the
Heavens'.
That's what soloing is about.
Heaven's and Hell's, Forevers and Whiles.
Homer
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